i was fooled. faking would do you NO good miss ;]

I'll try to write something different. something that can make someone listen. it's taglish. don't worry.

It gets so funny when people think na someone really likes them. I mean come on man! but who know's di ba? Minsan i get fooled din naman and i admit na i fall for other people din na does not like me. for example.. i had a huge crush sa isang butch na i thought would really like me. I mean she was nice and all, but in the end… sobrang nainis ako kase she has a gf na pala. and she wants to be my buddy lang. I mean, hello? are you serious man? I would not say her name para hindi naman mapahiya ang tao. and i would not want anyone asking me kung anong nangyare after. ever!. kase i cried. hahah! I just thought about the funny things about lesbians, and ung love and so called love between two girls. And the thing is, i do it sa ibang tao rin. kaya siguro karma found a shorcut pabalik saken. hahah!

Other side of my world : Even if I care and get scared I dont really think that a person could get attracted to another person that quick. unless your like me. looking for someone that can make me smile again and make me realize that i am a human being that is worthy of someone's attention. or something like that. If I can choose someone to be my partner for life, it would definitely be a MAN. but hey. I am allergic to guys who courts me and wants to get laid. sooo, forget about what i said.
anyway. something happened.

have no sleep and i am at work. i dont want to be like this. working just because i have to. just to kill boredom, just to see other people. for money. for new clothes. and another piss off moment. She told me a couple of times that she is sorry and she never meant to hurt me. she knows that i am fucking mad. but the truth is, i am not. and that's the weird part. i am not mad at all. i am hurt. i just feel bad. why do people hurt others. then make lame excuses when they get caught. hey. ive done that a couple of times, but for the love of God, dont fake anything… dont fake love. dont hurt people that needs love. some people play games but i dont. so do not play with me. you are just wasting my time, love and trust.
Even if i laugh or cry it all out, it'll never change the fact that you faked something. you lied. and i loathe liars, but then again, Thank you for being that sweet girl who made me smile weeks. thank you for being honest and brave enough to answer my questions. I want to believe you and i want to workn things out. But then again, things like these pisses me hard. I will take your word and i will take a chance. I know that you care for me. you showed interest and we actually connected. you showed effort and thought of good things to say. I LIKE YOU miss. and that's it. nothing's gonna change that. NOTHING.